How dare you? How dare you bring me back to those thoughts, those feelings? How dare you come back here looking for love? You think it's funny? This is not a game, not a contest of who can break who more. Trust, if it was, you would win far sooner than I could ever even try.
I would give my life for you, I would have dropped everything in my life to bring a smile to your world. Anything. I still would. But I know, you would simply watch me die, you wouldn't walk two miles for me, wouldn't give me a second glance. Until the rest of the world turns it's back on you, knowing you to be the black-hearted killer that you are. It's only then that your voice falls to me, to pick you up, tell you your worth it, tell you all the little things that you want to hear. And I fall for it every time.
But how dare you use that against me? How dare you!? What were you thinking when those words left your lips? Do you even know, that you're the reason my heart can never heal, can never love another the way it fell for you? Do you just collect hearts, in your own little world where you're the only one anyone will ever need? Until that moment comes where there's a crack in your bubble, calling to me to fix it right up. And I always do. But each time I mend your world, I'm always the one left on the outside. Do you know it's cold out here? Do you know how lonely it can be with nothing here, watching you smile and capture those other girls with your lies and beautiful blue eyes? Do you even care that each time, I bleed a little longer? That it hurts so much more every time I fix you? But I do it anyway, because knowing your happy was worth it before. But not today. Today you've shown me what I've been questioning for so long. I've bled for so many years now, I've grown used to the cold. Did you know?
That you're the reason that I'm a ghost?
No. And you never will, as I fade outside of your world. But what happens when I can't fix it anymore? You'll see quickly that I really was SOMETHING to you.
Forever just a ghost. I will always be.
How dare you be the one to kill me? Don't you know I have so much to live for, so many people to love, to laugh with? Why would you take my life when I spend so much of myself to keep you alive?
How could you?
Because you don't care.
But I'll always love you. Until you truly cause me to fade away for good.
I would give my life for you, I would have dropped everything in my life to bring a smile to your world. Anything. I still would. But I know, you would simply watch me die, you wouldn't walk two miles for me, wouldn't give me a second glance. Until the rest of the world turns it's back on you, knowing you to be the black-hearted killer that you are. It's only then that your voice falls to me, to pick you up, tell you your worth it, tell you all the little things that you want to hear. And I fall for it every time.
But how dare you use that against me? How dare you!? What were you thinking when those words left your lips? Do you even know, that you're the reason my heart can never heal, can never love another the way it fell for you? Do you just collect hearts, in your own little world where you're the only one anyone will ever need? Until that moment comes where there's a crack in your bubble, calling to me to fix it right up. And I always do. But each time I mend your world, I'm always the one left on the outside. Do you know it's cold out here? Do you know how lonely it can be with nothing here, watching you smile and capture those other girls with your lies and beautiful blue eyes? Do you even care that each time, I bleed a little longer? That it hurts so much more every time I fix you? But I do it anyway, because knowing your happy was worth it before. But not today. Today you've shown me what I've been questioning for so long. I've bled for so many years now, I've grown used to the cold. Did you know?
That you're the reason that I'm a ghost?
No. And you never will, as I fade outside of your world. But what happens when I can't fix it anymore? You'll see quickly that I really was SOMETHING to you.
Forever just a ghost. I will always be.
How dare you be the one to kill me? Don't you know I have so much to live for, so many people to love, to laugh with? Why would you take my life when I spend so much of myself to keep you alive?
How could you?
Because you don't care.
But I'll always love you. Until you truly cause me to fade away for good.
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