Things Have Changed For Me

But that's ok. I'm changing mentally, emotionally. But I think i need to. I'm so tired of who I am, so bored of what I do. I want to LIVE. Not rot. I'm losing a lot of people, but I guess this is growing up. What can ya do? Keep walking. You'll find your way eventually.



I think I'll start sewing again. Stay to myself until I can get my life together. Then worry about having other people in it. I've always tried to save people....but I've come to realize, all the people in my life that I've tried to save, I haven't done a damn thing for them. Because I can't. They would never listen. And that left me feeling like I was at fault.

I know now I wasn't at all. I just can't save people. I'll stick to making people smile. i seem to be good at that. I'll stick to not trying so hard, and smiling myself.

Things have changed for me, but that's ok, I feel the same, I'm on my way.

Losing Interest

I'm getting bored with movies. I don't know if it's just me, or if movies just suck lately. I can't keep my attention on a movie. I just get...bored.

I do too much thinking and not enough doing. I want to be a model. The more I think about it, the more I think I'd be good at it...until I look at my face. Then that all changes. Ew. I need to do something about it, but alas, cannot.

I'm getting ansy. Time to do something memorable. I don't know what. But it needs to happen.

Stay tuned.