Sometimes I Think Too Much

This is not a game
This is not my life
I’m not alone
I can’t be anymore
I just want to breathe
Without the blood here to drown me
This is not my heart
These are not my eyes
Though they scream your name
They’re all full of lies
I don’t know who I am
I don’t know who I’m not
But I know who I want to be
I want to be me
I want to smile and mean it
I want to love me
Even when she’s not around
It’s not a game
And yet I still can’t seem to win